Life after promos

heyhey ~ 
it's been quite long since i last blogged . so, promos ended like one-two weeks before .and school's pretty boring these days since we go back mainly for mother tongue lessons and project work only :|
and since i don't take mother tongue, i've been rotting in school every morning while the rest are attending Mr Tan's lesson .

22October2012, the day we'll get back our results .feeling so insecure and worried cause i have no idea how i'll fare .one part of me is wondering why we can't get back our results earlier and the other part is like happy cause we have time to relax and play !
think chemistry would be the most screwed subject of mine ;x 
really didn't know how to do the paper though i studied .forgot the conditions and reagents for organic chem or rather, i mixed them all up and messed up my paper .haish oh well .my chemistry has been very bad all along .next up, physics was ... all i hope is that i can get that 35% for me to promote !and for the rest of my papers, i just pray that i can do okay *crosses fingers*

1month and 2 more days to Australia !^^= 
excited and a bit sian cause we'll doing math for ten days in this university and heard that there's nothing much to shop for in Australia :\ ohman !oggayyy deciphered that i'll most probably just lug bags of nougats back ! :p

started watching 醉后决定爱上你 the day before .hehe i'm so wols i know but i was super busy that time to watch so i'm catching up now :D after this, gna catch up on my overdue Running Man episodes and then embark on my on call 36 hours journey and i still haven't watched The Hunger Games !andandand, X-factor !ohgosh, so many things i wna watch !and do as well .like go shopping, go Sentosa, baking, cooking and manymany more !well, humans are greedy !

sometimes i feel rather i don't know ?weird/sad/disappointed/angry .
weird is like me .i'm weird and rather different from most people .okay, most girls i mean .just different thinking and personality and all .good&bad .well, there's always two sides to a story right ?so...yeah .
sad/disappointed/angry cause ...
sometimes i feel that i don't belong .and at times, i feel so indignant .i dislike his presence .can't understand why he's so useless .say he's trying, but i can't see it .all he ever does is eat and sleep and maybe go out to do some useless stuff .nothing .he does nothing for the family .SIGH .i'd say that my attitude towards him may be bad sometimes but i tried giving him chance time and again .but he never fail to disappoint me .when i showed my care, he just ignored it .maybe the way i cared wasn't straightforward .and so, he lost my trust .like really .he's so useless and not helpful at all .he's unaware of my life, my everything .are we even related by blood ?!and the way he treats her is so unacceptable, really .so at the end of the day, i feel that i'm more defensive of her .cause  i love her more than him .no, correction i dislike him .so there's no love for him at all .i know i shouldn't behave like this but i can't help it .he's not worth my care and concern and love .so sometimes i'd rather go out all the time than to go home and deal with all these .there's only so much my heart and mind and  soul can take these y'know .i know i'm a young adult already and i'm supposed to be independent and mature and all but i ain't as strong as i look .all the quarrels over the years i'm sick and tired of them all, honestly .forget it maybe all these should just be kept to myself .



i ♥ my mum !